Symbolic drawing about the first step

I could not get the whole page scanned of either of the pages I wanted to post. This is an " OH SO VERY SYMBOLIC" expression of myself and the first step or myself and sobriety. It was done a month before 9/11/01. Obviously, I was struggling with getting clean. I will try again to get the whole page in there. I used ink, markers, gel pens, silver and gold markers, and that glitter glue crap. I also have a quote out of the AA Step book: "It was a statistical fact that alcoholics almost never recovered on their own resources...In AA's pioneering time, none but the most desperate cases could swallow and digest this unpalatable truth. Even these 'last gasper's' had difficulty in realizing how hopeless they actually were. But a few did- laying hold of AA principles with all the fervor with which the drowning seize life preserver's" I'd like to go into some of the symbolism's, but I need some shut eye. I will mention one. There is an orange life preserver floating on the right of me in the picture...and my hand is NOT grasping for it. The life preserver symbolizing sobriety...I was obviously not ready for sobriety...as I gaze down towards all the drug paraphenalia by my feet on the ocean floor. Yep, it wasn't quite my time...I am sober today.